~>Dancing in The Moonlight<~

Painful Week

2011-07-08T20:39:00.001+08:00

This week is a real painful week for me...Unbearable

Wed start of cramps
Pain 2 toothache! The pain is so bad it making my eyes water and the while left side of my mouth swell
My head can't think

Dying and thinking what have I done to deserve these terrible pains 

Lucky got my dear to comfort and mentally support me
I have the best dear and he gives me strength to go through everything

A blessed weekend is a happy weekend

2011-06-06T00:38:00.001+08:00

Proudly welcoming my godson into the world

2011-03-23T21:17:00.001+08:00

Proudly introducing KiaLih & Gwendolyn's Firstborn child;
my godson into the world

BABY LEONARD TAN

Hiphiphurray!
An angel's born today.

Gwen gwen has given birth to a healthy baby boy today afternoon.

An active little bundle of joy!
May our little angel grow up with all the good traits of his mummy and daddy!

To be intelligent and charismatic like his dad and Sweet, lovable, diligent and charming like his mum! 

21March 2011 - 1Day after we chose our palace:)

2011-03-21T20:53:00.001+08:00

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After 8years of fighting and bickeringtogether and with each other, KH and I are getting a home together 

We're so excited with our future place that we went window shopping for concepts and ideas for our future home

Now we have to do loads of savings  So that we can build a comfortable sustainable and happy family together living together till we are 

Esplanade library after 2 years

2011-03-19T16:47:00.001+08:00

It's been 2years since i last stepped into the Esplanade library.

I can safely say that little has changed since my last visit.

One look at the theatre wings I began picking up a few books looking for a corner to read.

After walking about i finally found a luxurious stretch of seat by the window with a view of the towering hotels and shopping malls across the road.

Many catastrophic disasters have occurred around the world with the most recent disaster being the twin disasters hitting neighboring japan;disasters; a 9.2richter scale earthquake followed by a 10m tall tsunami hitting the pacific island almost immediately followed by the failure of the Fukushima nuclear power plant caused by the earthquakes and it's aftershocks

My heart goes to the people of japan who have lost their loves ones in these disasters especially those poor little children who have lost their parent to in this series of natural disasters. It's currently snowing in japan and now they have no one to look after and love them.

Sitting on the bay window watching the rain fall as i listen to music from my ipod, blogging away and reading the books that I have picked.

I thank god for his blessings and grace. For allowing me to enjoy the familiar feel in the comfort of my peaceful safe haven even when another part of the world is currently in chaos.

Thank you lord.
Amen

Another thing important things is: KH and I are going for the choosing of our little palace tomorrow!

Keeping my fingers crossed that god blesses us with a piece of his loving palace

The Wine Company Dempsey Road

2011-03-10T21:26:00.001+08:00

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Sitting alone in mixed cuisine restaurant blogging away is a refreshing
downslope of Dempsey hill, sipping on my glass of medium bodied red wine and listening to familiar chinese ballades playing in tue background
The Wine Company Dempsey Road

Life After 1 Semester of Sch

2011-03-06T19:52:00.001+08:00

After my 1st Semester and in the middle of my 2nd Sem.

I can say that life as a full time working adult + a part time student is not as I have imagined it to be.

I knew that being a part time uni was going to be terribly challenging but this is a lot more challenging than I imagined.

Demands of commitment to work, school family and friends continues to increase with each other as they compete for my attention.

Workloads have been increased tremendously as i have to take the workloads of both my superior and subordinate .

The both of them bailed out on me during my 1st sch term! 
Disappointed a I am, I knew they bailed out on the job and not on me coz it was due to their in ability to cope and take stress and I'm definately not the one responsible for stressing them!

i knew that their period of stay was timed the moment they joined us and their departure was inevitable as their unwillingness to continues to "take the challenge" was evident

I do not blame them for leaving as years of experience has taught me. These people are here for the moment and won't last long. Caused these people are here to buy time...

Well enough about work
School is a myriad of mind boggling experience.Every module come with full of technical terms which somehow rings bell about the stuff we learnt from schil and each word conjured a blurry image in my mind

3weeks into school life update

2010-09-19T20:12:00.001+08:00

3weeks into school now life is indeed different. 

I now have to shutdown my PC and start flying at 6pmeveryday (Especially when there's school!)
There's really so many things to do and so little time to achieve them !

Work, study and so little family time! Stretched out and exhausted... Need to adapt fast! I have so little interaction time with my family I barely know whats going on at home

I miss my family,wonder if they miss me too

Re-Adjustments of Priorities

2010-08-11T08:53:00.001+08:00

Life is indeed different once you know you have a goal & objective.

You will have to make sacrifices in order to achieve your objective. Of course I don't mean this in the mean and unscrupulous way.

But one has to weigh the importance and choose carefully

You have to focus on what you want and go for the target.

Aim for the stars, stay focused & you will land somewhere in between them

This is something I learnt when I was in my primary school.

Hard to practice but it can be done. Since I know it can be done, it must be done. No more hemming and hawing

Happy Birthday Singapore

2010-08-10T08:47:00.001+08:00

A Year has come and gone since the last time we celebrated our last national Day.

So many things have happened.

Last year: National Day Celebration with Yeye cum family gathering at his place,M&D getting ready for their Big Day & the arrival of their little bundle of joy.

This year: No more Yeye, darling M&D happily married and baby Darius is one month old already.

I will also be embarking on another chapter of my life.

As a biological aunt to baby Darius& as an aspiring undergrad.

Being eldest granddaughter, Yeye has always wanted me to complete my education with a proper degree like my uncles.

Soo...Yes, I have finally decided what i wanted to do with my life and bitten the bullet and enrolled for my degree programme.

I will be taking a long distance programme at Herriot Watts University.
BSc. in Facilitied Management.

Keeping my fingers crossed the the UK Campus will accept my application for this long Distance Fast forward programme :)

Yuppie

Baby Darius's First Family Outing

2010-08-06T12:23:00.001+08:00

1/August/2010
Baby Darius's first family outing with mum ,dad, Aunty ruby& uncle KT.

After his debut appearance at his 1month party, Baby Darius ventures out with mum,dad,Aunty ruby & uncle kt for his first trip to Kwan yin's temple&the malls.
*The weather is chilly from the heavy rains in the morning but mum and dad has dressed him well for his first shopping experience

Baby Darius's 1st Mth Celebration

2010-07-31T13:03:00.001+08:00

Dearest Madeleine& Darren's 1st born Son: Darius Yong is having his 1st party in his life!

His first month buffet is today 31st July2101 (Saturday) at his paternal grandma's house: 121 Potong Pasir Ave 1 #09-283 s(330121) at 12.30pm.

I am officially an aunt for a month now. How cool is that 


Aunty ruby is still in the office rushing her orders before she make a detour to fix her wardrobe malfunction then going for the party

Visualizing Flowers

2010-07-26T19:28:00.001+08:00

Monday Blue....19July2010

2010-07-19T13:10:00.001+08:00

Suffering from Monday Blue's after a slow and rainy sunday:(

Baby Ryan's 1mth Celebration!

2010-07-17T18:39:00.001+08:00

Dearest Vanessa's younger brother, Aunty Nan's & Uncle Tiong's son: Ryan Tan

The results are out!

2010-07-12T17:40:00.001+08:00

The Results are out! Warm was fine but Office Bee has flung her TP test 32-18=14
feeling very disappointed and depressed now

What's going to happen to her now? What am I going to do

Sigh....time to book more revision classesSobx...then go back to her office hive....depressed

TP Day has come!

2010-07-12T15:29:00.001+08:00

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Sunny Monday Morning and Office Bee us now flying to her office hive to try conquer her mount everest of paper work waiting on her desk! (Something to take her kan chiong spider jitters off her afternoon TP)

Office Bee has left her office slightly earlier to slow down her thumping heart before she goes for her Warmup and her TP.
Rain Outside giving me a sense of calmness....seems like fairy god Ma asking me to chill...thanks Ma

Now Listening to slow slow jazz tunes to calm herself down in the waiting room but other more nervous testees making her nervous again...Oh dear....

I need my hot green tea !

Office Bee Blogging in her cell

2010-07-01T15:46:00.001+08:00

Currently in my hive looking out for fresh ideas and ways to do things...
Argh I want my pc and materials....!

First Mobile Blog from Stella white

2010-06-13T17:10:00.001+08:00

Yay...i'm so happy that i managed to find this new blogging app for my iphone...now i can pen my thoughts for my own reflections using my iPhone blog !

New Bee in times of crisis

2008-11-16T14:20:00.003+08:00

Everyone is is taking measures and doing all sorts of thing to help themselves cope with the looming or already here global financial crisis...and the talks of it is really starting to scare me....well...what to do...life still goes on and i am still super busy with my work..sigh

and feeling so guilty coz i haven't been spending time with my family....for my sis, bro and dad's brithday....its bad..:(

only improvement i have made so far is going to yoga class with my dear mummy....:)
and sat night cycling with my dear....yup....need to start clearing out my study room too..sigh...but i keep putting it off :(

Update on my life...Flashbacks...

2008-03-17T22:35:00.003+08:00

well..been a long while since i last documented what went on with my life...hmm...so many things have happened in the past half a year. i don't know where to start...i mean like seriously...
there's so much going on at the same time i don't know which to start on first... =(
was attempting to write stuff about important events in my life but not too sure why....i just didn't go about finishing the thing sigh....its bad...coz when i am actually on to something like remembering all the nitty gritty details or almost finishing it....i ended up accidentally deleting the file...and that happens like 80% of the time...like wth....ahh.....i was just about to finish recording it down for my own reference but i had to go delete it or lose the whole file or something like that...what can i say....hmmm
Guess this is just another case of bee drowning under paper...

Doughnut Breakfast

2007-09-25T12:35:00.000+08:00

Was walking with dear to the train station on the way to work this morning and couldn't resist the temptations when i walked past Yummy's @ whitesands.

Yummy Yummies.....hee....

♥♥♥

Frutti Tutti...soft donut filled with fresh cream, glazed with chocolate and topped with a strawberry. ..soft and fluffy yummy looks heavenly and cloudlike but its literally dripping with heavy smooth cloud like fresh cream...

♥♥♥
This Yummy is called Apple Stuffie...this one reminds me of macdonald's apple pie...(^-^)

♥♥♥
This Yummy is called milo cereal..milky creamy and crunchy all in one bite

♥♥♥♥

This Yummy is called custard stuffie donut...one word lovely the custard melts in your mouth along with the pastry very light and not too sweet..yummy

♥♥♥♥

This Yummy is called blooberry stuffed, blueberryblueberrybloooberry...yummy but would be better if the berry taste was stronger...

♥♥♥

This Yummy Strawberry hits the stomach like no other haha lovely orange cream in the middle with strawberry icings and the chocolate star....nice

Overall rating after a whole box of yummies?

☺☻♥☻♥☻♥☻☻♥☻♥☻♥☻♥☻♥☻♥☻♥☻♥☻♥☻♥☻♥☻☺

2007-09-22T13:41:00.000+08:00

have not been updating on my life for the longest time and some thought i ran away from home...sorry dears i've so many things to do and no time to blog anymore.
ok time for some quick updates.
mummie and daddie out stationed againz meaning weekends burnt againz & Papers, pens and faxes on the standby all prepared to handle whatever that comes since i've gained some experience since their last short trip.
What am i preparing for? well...everyone with all their last minute urgent things again of course.
Last trip:
mummie and daddie not around so this is what they did :don't plan thier stuff, forget to inform us some stuff then throw all their last minute nonsense at me they think i've nothing to do push their thing at me then just sit back and relax...handle 1-2 place at a time and think my job is easy wait till they get a taste of what i'm doing.why do they always think i've nothing to do? you look after these places and think its taxing? We look after all those places under you plus other ok.

Everytime also last minute, everything also now...cannot handle....wait for ruby to handle..i'm one heck of a tolerant person but there's this limit i can tolerate..

simple to note:
Plan in aavance, think before you commit...don't commit then come complaining.don't blamed me for not helping i'm not the one that commited...anyhow commit then throw at me...i'll just let u die lor..

2007-08-15T17:11:00.000+08:00

Everythings moving so fast...
goodness...feels like its only afew days ago since i last celebrated my birhday...haha 22 June to 18 Aug..haha..
thanks you everyone for all your nice and wonderful prezzies =)
hope you all had great fun..
sorry i took so long to thank you guys...seriously up to my neck with works coz everyone's chasing me ...!
blehz... need to move faster and chase more stuff out before the thing turns red...!
WheE~...

Birthday Invitation to Family and friends

2007-06-13T11:11:00.000+08:00

Dear Family and Friends....(not too sure how many of you actually have the time to come read my nonsense) i have soemthing really important to announce :)

My 21st Birthday Celebration will be a Barbecue cum Overnight Outdoor Camp.
Address: Pasir Ris Park Area 2 Pit 30.
Date:23rd June 2007(Next saturday)
Time: 23rd June 2007 4 pm - next day 3pm

Food will be provided..let me know if you cannot take or are allergic to anything...

Things to Bring:
1)Yourself
2)Your smiles...
3)~Your Camping gear~
.Tent(if you have)
.Sleeping Bag
.Towels
.Change of clothes
.toiletries
.anything else u think you might need
4) Drinks (f you want..(^-^))
5) last but not least..my presant...lol

2007-05-30T15:50:00.000+08:00

workwork...so busy working no time to update my blog...:)
don't know what to record anymore...
so many things going on at the same time..
chasing this chasing that calling this calling that...hectic life in an even more hectic environment...
tiring until all my panda eyes showing...my only consolation?
i love my job...love the place i work in...love the people working here :)
going for another supplier's dinner tmr :) so exciting coz the president and the first lady's going to be there...whee.. :)
never been to such an event before..and best thing is have to dress nice nice..good excuse to dressup really nicely...hee :)

2006-12-13T12:24:00.000+08:00

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

May my beloved cocoa rest in Peace

2006-11-10T19:37:00.000+08:00

i'm sick and sad...
down with flu fever and sore throat and went to see the docter. have 1 day mc....sigh all my work left in the office.... :(

i'm sad....my beloved cocoa just died.found her dead in bed this morning.
adopted her partner and her from my dad when sh*** decided she didn't want hamsters anymore.
she lived to a ripe old age of 2 years 6mths and 3 days loved and looked after her till today.
knew she was about to die coz hammies only live to about 2 yrs+ but still sad about losing her.

my only consolation is that she was well fed and happy in her last days.

may my beloved cocoa rest in peace and be happy when she joins her partner in heaven.. :'(

No Bumming around...

2006-10-28T11:31:00.000+08:00

so many things to do so little time...but still decuided to do this boring things to add colours to my blog..haha..sian...

Your Birth Month is June

Peaceful and harmonious, you seek the gentle side of life.
Your warmth and consideration touches many.

Your soul reflects: Friendship, love, and beauty

Your gemstone: Pearl

Your flower: Rose

Your colors: Light blue, white, and cream

What Does Your Birth Month Mean?

Your Birthdate: June 22

You tend to be understated and under appreciated.
You have a hidden force to do amazing things, doing them your own way.
People may see you as strange and shy, but they know little.
Your unconventional ways have more power than they (and even you) know.

Your strength: Standing up for what you know is true

Your weakness: You tend to be picky and rigid

Your power color: Silver

Your power symbol: Square

Your power month: April

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

2006-09-22T23:49:00.000+08:00

something's wrong with my blog... can't seem to be able to add stuff up here...=/
but i at least i know waht i want can liaoz...
i wana go back to sch and do a decent degree that would be able to help me survive in this ratty world...don't think i'll be able to survive for long on this measly pay even if i scrimp and save coz my lifestlye's too expensive...

so all to have to do now is control my lemmings and spendings....then one day i would be able to get my own crib...if only...*siigh*....

waiting for....

in-satiable Lemmings...

2006-09-11T12:01:00.000+08:00

my list of wants with PICTURES~!!
lol...

slim brush set of three essential brushes (eye blender, eye applicator, and lip)

so many things but so little $$...sigh..
but come to tink of it...i don't really need all those considering that i have a whole lots of others that i've yet to touch/finish...its strange that i would want to get so many things coz i don't have place to store them already...=/ curb my lemming... i want to be freeeeeeeee......

2006-09-06T12:05:00.000+08:00

Bought a new home for my lancome compact powders. One blue and one black

Its a nice blue home for my powders and shiny black one for mummy's wahaha...

so happy :D

don't need to worry about the stuff braking into pieces coz they are finally protected and not homeless anymore...

hoope mummy likes her casing ;D

poor dear been sick for quite awhile...how i wish i can stay home to look after him...sigh
but have lotsa work to do... trying to finish everything properly since this is my part of the work but still worried. :(

still no new of the e.l.f parcel....should be floating around USPS....the wait is getting irritating....why can't e.l.f give me the postal order no so that i can track it for myself instead of waiting and waiting....sickening..
i want to be updated all the time...!!!

My 1st ever concurrent spree (^-^)

2006-08-30T11:48:00.000+08:00

felt that my life was in the dumps...

- deardear and his mood swings coz of work
- my own work and the ever tight schedules...
- family members with their problems
- friends with their problems
...kinda guilty for not going to buy special treats for my hammies bet they feel neglected....

feeling so much better after taking sorting out my thoughts...decided to leave my friends and family alone and let them solve their own problems since everyone thinks that they can do it on their own so let them be... :)

finally have afew things to cheer on yay.......
- completed my first concurrent spree~~!!

yay...the ebags and wetseals sprees are has finally completed :)
my first time running 2 sprees concurrently...thank god that there're no hiccups...*phew*
would have cost me a bomb if anything went wrong... =p

haha...
love my new tops, the tommy hilfiger wallet i got for my dear and love sydney organizer i got for myself...

feeling so satisfied coz everything did looked better in real life and my organizer it comes with a calculator...haha...

- bought my hammies loads goodies~!! ...haha good for them and let them run around the house in the excercise ball...they seem to be enjoying it alot...

-oh and i got a really lovely teachers' day presant from my tutee and her mum...so nice of them i totally did not expect to get anything this is my first ever too...wow...will treasure it...

i love it when everything is back on track...whopee :D

2006-08-08T09:15:00.000+08:00

can't help but feeling something's wrong with my life.
but the thing is nothing's wrong with my life but there definately is something wrong with me....
My dear SO think that 'i always have this urge to splurge whenever i'm out.' and he normally doesn't say something like that unless its true...=/
how need to find a way to control myself and stop this super bad habit.
before.

to date i've bought like
-carlorino wallet
-warehouse top
-wetseal tops
-la senza stuff againz
-diamond love songs album
-even the latest tokyo drift soundtrack
-harry potter book

Happy with all the stuff that's arrived :)

2006-07-31T15:06:00.000+08:00

Successful mini la senza spree...

all was well except for afew tiny hiccups and now can finally sleep in peace. :)
haha spent the usual shipping time waiting,worrying and hoping that all was well for my recent mini la senza spree with my friends. haha...but everything was forgotten when i opened the package....the stuff inside is gorgeous and there were also 2 tubes of lavender foot creams thrown in by ls for the delay ;)

Bloggin @ Work =*)

2006-07-26T11:38:00.000+08:00

Learnt a new quote from duno where haha:
*~+>If Something Can Be Changed,Work To Change It!!<+~*

*~Why Worry~*

*~Why Upset~*

*~Why Complain About It~*

Blogging during office hours can be really dangerous when you're sitting right in front and facing your boss...but this is one of the few luxuries i can have while working
coz staring at all the tiny figures and diagrams are really hurting eyes...

been staring it all morning till my vision has become blurred... =/
shall remember to bring my mini magnifying glass before i become blind... =(
the package from LS has finally arrived.... the stuff inside was so nicely wrapped up that i can't bear to open it....really nice haha...=) vpost is one of the best courier services i have ever used...*thumbsup* but only down part abt using them is that the only works office hours...(meaning to say if i use them i have to make sure someone's home to help me sign or else i would have to rush down to collect it before it closes).

haha patiently waiting for 2 more packages
- 1 frm huishan
- another frm ebay seller

...now hands itching to get more stuff le.... even though i spent 100+bucks in the recent marina square midnight sales... =*) ohwell...retail therapy is such an expensive thing to have...

things i'm lemming for from:
- carlorino (cardholder/coinpurse)
- forever 21(tops)
- warehouse (tops)
- american eagle (capris)
- le senza (you say leh...lol)....

must learn how to control...and save for rainy days....

Happy Birthday Violet~!!

2006-07-23T01:07:00.000+08:00

been so long since i last typed anything about my life......

well as you all know i'm currently working as an assistant Qs. still learning and still struggling with my work coz not familiar with things and my mentors are too busy with all the work that needs to be done so all i can do now is to watch observe and lend a hand whenever and wherever help is needed..... yup
and today's my lady boss's birthday...the sweet lady doesn't seem keen to celebrate her birthday...says that she's a year OLDER...but find that its ok to be a lil older...so long as the heart stays young.. oh and i forgot to add that she's a really cool lady... a year older than my dad but definitely an angel... =) muahx

New Chapter in My Life: My First Full Time Job

2006-06-25T02:51:00.000+08:00

It all started with "Hi Ruby this is Violet calling from *D... pte ltd* i would like to arrange an interview appointment. can you pls call me back at 6*..... when you hear this message."

Feeling kinda nervous because my days of freedom are now officially limited to late saturday afternoons and whole sundays. Today's my last day of carefree life of eating sleeping worrying about my future with stuff like "what am i going to do and how am i going to do it questions".

After today my time would be priced because I'm hired.

wonder what my new work place would be like....looking forward to this new life whee~ (^-^)

2006-06-17T12:57:00.000+08:00

today marks the end of my mini-adventure of babysitting my cousins as well as camping over at my grandparents place...Judging from the amount of traffic coming over....its almost like 2 out of 7 days ous of which 1 day is devoted with just stop overs before the have to rush elsewhere...find that my grand parents really do lack the attention that they used to get from all of us... my aunts,my uncles my cousins and I are all guilty of negelcting them to a certain extent. :(

The experience was remarkable because i've become accustomed to bathing in cold water and even mastered the art of killing the cockroach w/o splatting the nasty bug's juice all over the place.eWw...haha cleaned out the cupcoards but looks like there's still plenty of clutter around.

think i have to reschedule another day whereby everyone will be free to helpout and clear this place of pests and junk liek totally.

oh and my cousin has decided to drop the bombshell and tell her parents she wants to stay permenantly at my grandparents...hope that all will be well and that she's finally find her true self instead of being lost and mislead by some undesirable company.

all of us who have been through this stage will know that it take willpower to

god bless here and hope she finds her way out soon... i have good faith that my cousin is not weak and will definetely lead a wonderful and fruitful life..

hmmm....wonder what my grandmother is doing now...must be enjoying the scenery in china... (^-^)

2006-06-07T03:25:00.000+08:00

went to the loreal pte sales wi my mum today,could see that mummy and i throughly enjoyed ourselves coz we bought loads of goodies for ourselves....yay
hee...all skincare and mu stuff...and guess wat...its from all those brands that are normally way out of my budget...=x...
mummy saw it as a way of pampering herself while i saw it as a way of rewarding myself for having to survive looking after my aunt's lil monkeys....

haha....i had subconciously agreed to help my aunt babysit her kids when i was out hunting for dolly's ships stuff and would up having to be a baby sitter for two whole weeks.

they're cute and loavable when they want to be but they can be a really terrible...think i really got an in-sight of what it would be like looking after kids like them...it would be a joy as well as a chore...its like a love hate relationship with this chore.

the task sounded simple but had to do lotsa things that i wouldn't even do for my own home...
i was like my mum...

responsible i became responsible for teaching, looking after and cooking for my cousins....ok maybe not the cooking part...but i really couldn't bear eating all three meals outside: coz the food's normally msg laden making it really sinful and unhealthy to have.

so i read cook books, memorised recipes and cooked:
bought loads of fruits,veg,meat and stuff to cook...

i taught the boys life skills...like how to look after themselves aka clean up after themselves.
its kinda unbelievable that they didn't know how to do anything useful around the house....
stuff like clear their books, putting away their dishes packing their stuff and all....Plus how to prioritize their work and manage their time...

brought them out on a couple of occassions and learnt something really important...make them carry their own stuff in small bags so that no has to carry their stuff for them.
told them "if you find it a chore to carry your things then don't bring and don't complain if you dont' have your thing when you need it"
... it was plain simple..
"rely on no one but yourself.. don't depend on people to look after your things for you.." this they didn't understand and had to learn the hard way coz their parent's would punished them for misbehaving and not doing stuff they they were suppose to do.

was glad that the babysitting thing is over now but can't help wondering how are they coping...Since they've been like my no 1 priority for the past few weeks...

Tiring Saturday: feeling so dead tired....but happy

2006-05-27T23:54:00.000+08:00

wokeup to a cloudy sky with a terrible migrane this morning but had to drag myself out to meet my dear cos promised him that this week we'll be going to the new gym...he's been looking forward to it all week...its almost like the most exciting event of the week for him...*tired*

so there we went.....
to the new gym in tampines....haha was quite impressed coz it was a pool side gym that overlooked the tampines swimming complex....made me want to jump in...=x
liked the overall deco and furnishings of the place and the facilities of the place...
they had a wide range of brand new excercising equipments...really love the toilets, its huge,colourful and looked better than all the other gyms' and country club's toilet i've been to the layout of the entire place was way cool...

-computerised lockers=> no more lost keys

-nice music=> was expecting to hear instrumentals or oldies but i they were actually playing trendier tune that we normally hear on the radio...lol

-nice aircon=> not too cold for me and not too hot for him....a balance that's really hard to get

stay for 2 hrs+ and played around with all those equipments and stuff abit....now feeling so dead beat....and managed to burn a few hundred of calories...lol....

2006-05-09T15:20:00.000+08:00

sent my hp for servicing yesterday coz of my camera and the stupid joystick.... both died even when i was like supre gentle and careful with my hp...wonder why...=( as a result i didn't recieve the message sent by my tutee's mum regarding the timing of the class....she postponed the class from 2pm to 7 which was something something that's way later in the afternoon...more like evening...but ohwell...its not her fault that i sent my hp for servicing...so now i'm home typing this post...haha....its been awhile since i had time to concolidate my thinkings and type a proper post...

had to keep drafting the others till it finally made sense to me...haha quite sotong of me but its not my fault too......=x

looking for a full time job
trying to find time to sort out my stuff....its way overdue but i've no motivation to start working on it yet...how...

ohwell...shall catch some sleep before i go for my class.... and think about those 2 problems zZzZzZzZZZz

Cooking quiz

2006-05-09T14:34:00.000+08:00

Been looking around for some recipes that i can cook for my mum on mothers day and found quite afew funny games and quizes relating food and stuff.....haha....this is the result of one of the quizes i took....It sure is accurate...haha...i'm a learning cook....=P

You Are a Learning Cook

You've got the makings of an excellent cook, and the desire to be one.But right now, you're just lacking the experience. You couldn't be a top chef yet, but you could be an apprentice.

Are You A Good Cook?

shocked...sad..lost...irritated..

2006-05-07T03:23:00.000+08:00

arh....i'm so damn irritated with my game... my 2nd favourite character has been 'transported' without my knowledge to ossyria.....gawd....its cruel...coz its only a lvl 20 bowman and it has zero chance of survival in ossyria....how....feeling so irritated...arh.....

wonder who's so evil to ever think pf putting those inactive characters on the new map....arh.....
how....i don't know how to put my bowman back into victoria island...sad....coz is no cahnce to train liaoz....sianz....stuck in this horrible place called the aquarium where the ppl there are super unfriendly..... arh...pissed..... =(

Last 3 days

2006-05-04T12:56:00.000+08:00

today was rather aurprised to recieve a call frm D asking if i'm going to work to day... the poor fella didn't know that last sunday was my last day at work le then he asked me if i'm able to help hi out and work for another three days coz they havn't got a replacement for me yet...

haha...thoug was feeling quite pissed about the comm part but his reply "that he's been chasing watson hq for our weekly sales report but they havn't gave our reports to him yet so he couldn't telly it with our weekly ones thats why he can't payout our comm-s" that reply was reasonable...because i know how in-efficient big organisations can be when they think they can drag the timing for reply small coys....

haha...ya...so i'm re-hired for another 3 days (fri-sun) to be at taka ... wonder if i'll get a pay rise....*wink*

Last day at watsons

2006-05-01T11:48:00.000+08:00

yesterday was the last day for me as a hoyu promoter...and left with the knowledge that i've earned the top spot as their top seller for their biggest outlet =) haha....and felt a tremendous amount of relief as well as sadness for the first time in three month since a started on the job...

learnt alot as a promoter because i was more like a hair consultant than just someone selling something...
had forced myself to read up on the topic of hair because i was told "when people ask you something about your section, they are actually learning from you too" prepared myself for all sort of weird questions i could think of relating to hair because i didn't want to give ppl the wrong information and ideas on what should be used for when.

polished up on my people skills as i learnt to approach ppl from all walks of life and offer my services and help if they were lost. speaking to customers and bringing them to the right places allowed me to connect and understand others better as i learnt to be patient when dealing with people who are out to irritate others... all thanks to my mum's "do unto others as you want others to do unto you"

so many things that i feel relieved about:
- relieved that i would now be able to rest my throat have recovered my voice but started coughing blood...its scary but i'm still not allowed to take sick leaves....

-relieved that i won't have to keep saying the same thing again and again for four days in a row like a robot...its so mundane

-relieved that i won't have to report my total to so many people every 2 hours.....its really ridiculous especially when i have to run out every2 hrs to sms them coz i'm not allowed to use my hp on the sales floors

-relieved that i'm not going to be watched like a hawk and stared at like at alien by some ppl

-relieved that i won't have to crab walk around the live sized 'uno stacko' storeroom....i can't help feeling claustrophobic

i'm a sentimental person and would miss everyone that came through my path and left a memory on my extremely sotong brain:
SAD coz i have to leave my friends at the stores and i'm not going to be able to meetup with some of them le coz majority of them have been posted to other outlets even before i could ask them for their email adds....

ohwell hope to meetup with them some other time....

2days mc.....throat infection

2006-04-21T18:53:00.000+08:00

was rudely awaken by my neighbours upstairs and wanted to scream but had the most ultimate shock of the day when i wokeup. i found out that i lost my voice...and couldn't even squeak...and wondered what happen....drank afew cups of water to clear my throat but felt this huge stabbing pain in my throat....gawd that felt really awful
i couldn't even call my boss to tell them i couldn't work...thank god for the invention of handphones and sms-es....mass messaged all my bosses and supervisors to inform them that i sick and one pig of a numb skull called me back and asked my to speakup when he's talking to me....i wonder which word of lost my voice did he not understand...i just hung up on that dummy and messaged him that i had no voice and that skunk didn't even bother replying me...as usual....think they have a tendency to have finger cramps thats why they couldn't call back or message back... pissed...

good thing that its my 2nd last week working for them...i'm counting down to 30 april... then i can finally start on the things i've planned... =p

went to the doc and the wait was short...could be because i went early.... haha...but i went prepared...brought a book in case they made me wait a hundred years... now they have this weird system that even thought the doc issued an mc to you...it won't be valid till you paid for the consultation...because it had to be chopped to be valid and the chopping was to be done at the payment counter....

went to the uphill coffeeshop to eat coz all the medicines prescribed had to be taken after meal...
oredered a warm barley drink and my fav handmade noodles but this time i told them to replace the egg with more veg...but the dummy there only heard 'don't want egg and pepper' and he took away the egg, put peper and didn't even give me an extra leaf....stupid...

went home took the medicine and slept the whole day away until my xm came home...she seemed delighted that i lost my voice...that irritating girl...i'm still trying to figure out why outsiders find her nice....
poor blind fools...

workworkwork......woes....

2006-04-21T00:40:00.000+08:00

i'm pissed...i'm freaking pissed....so much on my mind and so little time to think...as usual...but i can't help feeling pissed...
every time i rest or chill someone will come along and ask "so what are you going to do with your life now?" like what the F**k is their problem... i thought i set a one year grace for myself to think through my next step? i am afterall entitled to think what i want for myself....the f*cking decision i make affects me and i only owe my future to myself... so i have to think carefully...
i'm not the yound gullible one to get conned into "making decisions" made for me by my parents...like my stupid course...F*ck this stupid diploma was a waste of my time...i don't think i need to spend three F-king yrs studying how to look after those things...any brain dead moron could have done it....others spent 3 mths learning the thing i spent 6mths in class for struggling to keep awake #$%^(&@^#&@#...

i need time... i need some time to think what i want and how can i find the things i want in my life... why can't those ppl just spend one minute using their brains to recall how lost and irritated they felt when they had to make a life changing decision...and i not entitled to think? don't i deserve a little rest or credit for being able to juggle my driving with tuitions and part time job as a means of keeping myself occupied and also earning some extra dough for my own expenditures?
i do right...coz even though it sounds easy its f-king hard and tiring to juggle so many things at a go and strive for the best...feels like i'm leading a double life coz one job requires me to be outspoken and friendly approaching ppl and all while the other requires me to be serious, strict and understanding while helping ppl out...
feeling so stressed and tired i feel like finding some super soft toys to throw...find that after a few rounds of throwing toys i feel better coz all the pent up anger and frustrations from my work is released....really quite worried that i'll turn into my version of violence but i can't help feeling like an angel...coz i don't breaking anything and stuff unlike some stupid idiots who likes throwing expensive stuff and breaking them in the process.....that's pure stupidity coz after the throwing session they feel the guilt of spoiling a wonderfully made creation....

here are the things i need to do before the end of the year and i want to plan how i want to do it myself....

family problems
fix the com
Clear my studyroom
Clear my room
Get my license
Compile my own mini-wellbeing encyclopedia
choose between getting a job or furthuring my education
choosing what job or course i want to do and @ where...
that's all for now

oh...and almost forgot to mention that i adopted 2 more hamsters from my father... they've yet to be named but one's a girl while the other's a boy....they're quite fierce coz they almost died from neglect at my father's house...saved them and hope that they'll be tamer within this month coz violent hamsters are stressful to watch and look after and its not as if i'm not stressed enough.... not sure what to call them...coz my first two bois are called biscuit tan weiwei and cookie tan yangyang... lolx...love-em to bits...
they're so cute and adorable... feeling guilty for not being able to spend longer hours with them so i keep buying them new toys....

so many commitments....i feel like i'm about to go bonkers...

2006-04-12T23:35:00.000+08:00

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Shopping @ orchard road

2006-03-07T23:07:00.000+08:00

was suppose to meet gwen but reached only at 11:30...was feeling kinda guilty and could see that she's quite tired already...so sorry...but was really heldup in the very last minute when i was about to go out...*sigh*...she was already paying for a green top when we got there and luckily she was quite forgiving and didn't get mad at me..for being late :) and we went on to take the train to twn... and so for the day out journey begins :D really quite happy to have gwen accompany me for today's shopping haha....its been so long since i last went to singapore well known orchard rd ~!! haha ...and boy did i have fun.. :) ..main objective for going to town today was to get a job and also to see if there's been any drastic changes in our ever colourful playground...most of the places are currently under renovations with little parts here and there blocked for the works....but everything else was as it was before the term tests...haha
went to heerens: sakae sushi coz gwen wanted to get some sushi to eat...was hoping to be able to go for the buffet but because she would have did of hunger by the time it was 3:30 so we just went ahead with the ala-carte... had afew coloured plates ...found the food alright...then i got adventurous and tried something really strande like the avocado temaki...something i really wouldn't dare take it if it wasn't for her recommendation...but the avocado temaki turned out to be the best thing i've ever tried after my favourite chwanmushi and vegetable tempura of course...but it was good nevertheless...would surely go for it again the texture and feeling when i put the temaki into my mouth was simply *wOw*...thanks girl... :)

after lunch we went on to shopping for the things that fellow forum angels have got me really hooked on....MU..haha...*evilgrinz* went to basic beauty...and was pleasently surprised to find that they've renovated the place and replaced all the proud and arrogant sales staff with new and much more pleasant people...could see that they're around our age and they treid to be really help explaining stuff that didn't have english translations...thumbs up for the new sales crew there...

gwen bought a rather interesting e/s palette coz it had so many colours...a blue mascara and a oil control compact powder...all seemed like really good buts coz all the stuff could be found at SASA too if i remembered correctly...haha...total damage IRRC was about $35+ would have bought something for myself too if i wasn't so tight on my budget....*sigh* but shall go there more often to see it there're any cheap steals coz the staff there are really quite friendly...

went to red earth opposite heerens with the intention of getting their colour correction concealors...but when we went there...no one actually acknowledged out presence...most of the staff busied themselves with other customers while others stood there pretending that they couldn't see us....so we just left the place without getting anything....like why should we get something from them when their service attitude was so terrible ..we also not desperate to get anything from there... (#_#)

we contemplated on getting jobs in one of the MU counters coz it would be so fun but never got about to any of those counters coz we lost focus the moment we stepped out of the train station... most of the stores that were not under renovations have been beautifully decorated to attract people like us to them and keep us trapped within... We didn't get to apply for any jobs because we were so busy looking at all the wonderful creations and also because we didn't feel comfortable in the store...had this strange feeling that everyone at the store was looking at us strangely today...wonder why... =( i thought i was the only one feeling watched but mt friend felt it too...*sigh* got a little worried...so we kept looking into the mirrors to see if we did look strange to anyone...but no...we didn't...so the feeling of being watched for so unjustified...

when we reached taka we walked through the MU counters without even taking a look at anything because gwen wanted to show me some straberry shortcake thing...i thought it was the doll that i have but she expolained to me that it was actually a piece of cake that i would love too because it was suppose to be much better and truly heavenly as compared to the avocado temaki... was feeling quite excited coz its been quite long since i found something this wonderful to try and now there was an even better thing... :D" the strawberry shortcakes was so light and fluffy that i though it must have been hand made....haha...didn't think it would be possible for a beating machine to beat such fluffy cakes... *marvelous* :D"" would definately go back for more... htere was even a ppiece of dry ice for us to play with after eating the cake...haha...actually it was something they used to keep the cake cool and prevent it from spoiling but naughty us we had other plans for it...*evilgrinz* we actully brought the dry ice into the ladies and dumped it into one of the vacant toiletbowls to see the effect water has on dry ice....it was fun initially but after awhile...the novelty wore off and we just pulled the flush to wash the carbonated water away....lol...went to fancl...coz gwen wanted to get the MU cleanser that was shown in the egg advert but didn't get the thing fro two reasons....one the salesgirls thought didn;t think that we were worth her time to help us and ordered her colleagure (must be her junior) to serve us...like how rude lor...she didn't even bother explaining to us that she was actally helping someone else and the stupid thing couldn't even remove a tiny mascara stain we got from the testers at basic beauty....

after the incident at fancl gwen and i walked to wisma which was the next place we wanted to go to...haha...stepped into quite a few boutiques who's service was poorer than those tiny shops found in bugis street... people go to town wanting to get something to pamper themselves and all they got was a few snide comments and weird stares?like wth...*sianz* and we thought forever21 would be better...but the people are the worse of the lot...esp the one standing at the changing room....was thinking of getting afew new tops there coz they looked nice...but that creature really put me off... she wouldn't even open her golden mouth to say anything to anyone... it was something like "snatch the hanger, remove the clothes and point to the door..." the tops i tried looked quite good...but i still don't want to get it....there would be more places selling tops similar to that place and i really hated the stupid attitude salegirl... gwen told me that she gave everyone that stupid 'prisoner-ish' treatment too...no wonder there wasn't many locals in the shop...who would want to buy things if they had a girl with such a stupid attitude...

TBS..haha one of my favourite stops wherever i go to...the place is a gem with so many products and scents you wouldn't have to get any health and beauty stuff from any other places...=x love their strawberry scented items...its nice...and been lemming for ther lipgloss but i simplay have too many....and i know its not going to be very useful since i've just learnt that such stuff have their own expiry dates....i shall just get it when i need it...haha...went to Sasa to look for my white liner coz i know the stuff they carry there can be trusted too...and also beacuse the one i bought from tfs were in bits the secnd time i opened it....was quite upset when i found the white bits broken and strewn in a haphazard way in my mu pouch...was realli pissed coz i think i know who the culprit might be....s[ent ages looking at the shelves trying to find a suitable white liner and found a brand new AC white liner...its great slides smoothly when drawn..love it
SaSa

The usual low points of my life...

2006-02-19T23:11:00.000+08:00

been so cranky and bothered for the past few days coz i was feeling so stressed..
there're so many things have been going through my mind...all of which are demanding 100% attention from me...simply don't know how to allocate my time anymore... :( usual worries are stuff like:

School work (tutorials...exams...fyp)

I'm tired...everythings so going not as planned...all i need is some time to consider my next move and put together what i need before the next dateline but is it that hard for them to let me have some time alone to think how to do my work..study for my paper and get some thing planned for my fyp interview...afterall these are the major things in my school life right now and my future after graduation actually depend on it.

Family ( everyone...esp my cousin)

Worried for my family....it seems so empty that and i know my mum's worried about us too...she complains that though we live in the same house she doens't get to see us as often as she like could be because we've all grown up and want some personal space but couldn't they just find time to sit together at the table or in front of the tv to show that they are still around? The only person home most of the time other than my mum is xm....she's been studying really hard but she's nt studying the right way..been trying to tell her that but her stubborn-ness got on my nerve...hope she succeeds and gets into her ideal jc....

My bro has been mia for alot of family activities...kinda worried about him...he's drifted from our house since his poly career has begin could be because of his schwork and stuff from poly and church but he hasn't been home talking to anyone or anything...he'll zoom out of the house the moment his hp rings and shackup in his room the moment he reaches home and blast his da*n sound system...

I'm guilty of zoning out in online games and forums to unwind every nght after dinner but that's due to the unreasonable amount of stress that we get subjected to in class but that's my excuse and i'm entitled to that...=X *sigh* talk about spending much quality time together...

my cousin ran away from sch again.heard that this isn't her first time...feeling sad, disappointed and upset coz she's more like a sister than a cousin to me. we had so much telepathy and i had so much hopes for her...i wish i could help but she's ever since she started work she's been building this mini-wall between us that though i see her but i can't feel her thoughts anymore...something that i'm so totally not willing to accept...cos though i trust her but she doesn't know that the world isn't as bright and cheery as our teachers taught us...her poor parents have lost hope...especially her mum...wondering how she ...i know they're both at a lost of what to do and still trying to give her more space to grow but they're also very sad that they have lost their little girl...though a daughter, she's still their first child and the pride and connections they had is unexplainable afterall god didn't plan for anything super disasterous to happen did he?

My friends are as usual...everyone busy doing their own things preparing for exams and stuff i suppose...gwen getting her results soon and given the amount of effort she put in,i'm quite sure that she'll breeze through it all.... :)

*sigh* all of them ...
and Chalet woes, hammie's love,friendster

poor baby..been neglecting him for so many things....
thank god my baby's understanding...muahx love him so much.... ;D

Test! Exams!! Datelines~!!

2006-02-08T01:02:00.000+08:00

the time has come for me to go with the flow and hopefully not get drowned by the ever increasing and never stopping homework and assignments.....gawd...why are there so many things to do and so little time to do them...have to hand in everything before the term tests and exams...

oh my...what am i saying....its already time for tests and exams...and soon i'll be school-less and out into the deep dark world or the working society....Sigh....

time to start thinking about my future again and once again i'm lost....don't know what i want again...
i thought i wanted to be a teacher, a musician, a music teacher, a shop keeper...for what shop i also not sure....then a property maintenence girl seems like a good idea...or a property agent...or a cafe operator....i really can't decide...

i want to study some more in a U but my dad's telling me to wait to get a job in some company....
what do i do now...can someone please advice me?

i want to to stop moving i need some time to rest and think of how to study for my test and exams...but i know its impossible...the world will not wait for little ol me to think.... i need to act fast...but i need help.....felling so lost now
HELP....

:(

XING NUAN KUAI LE 2006

2006-01-29T23:22:00.000+08:00

though today is the first day of chinese new year,i don't really feel the CNY spirit...
don't know if its because of the fact that this cny is actually squashed in between my tight school schedule...but this feeling sux

i fel so drained....one minute its sch projs next is fyp followed by test...fyp..exams...fyp then school projs tuts and stuff again before its cny then test next week and exams wk after next.

having to keep to this crazy schedule is driving me nuts...gawd...

so much to do so little time...and all the yummy delicious food but need to diet...sianz....

i want to enjoy myself but i don't want to get fat liaoz....its irritating....helpzz

Pre-New Years Eve Party

2005-12-31T15:22:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was the most hectic day of my life....i wokeup like 9+ in the morning coz of the loud banging sound from upstairs again....onli to remember that my room was in a mess and i wanted to get down to actually clearingup my stuff for new year....haha....spent 3 hours clearing up one little corner in my room....coz was having sucha hard time deciding what to throw and what not to throw....threw out some really old stuff that i forgot i have.... and packed up my stuff that i really caould bear to throw...gosh my mum said the amount of stuff i wanted to keep was somuch that it looked like i was just re- arranging my things....*sigh* but she wouldn't understand that i'm not as 'organised' as my sister....that girl is willing to throw away perfectly new clothes so that she can psycho my mum into gettin her new stuff....sigh...wat a wasteful girl....but she's my sis...=/ i got tired after tha one little corner that i decided to play diner dash before i had to start preparing to go to the shop to helpout...again... *sigh* once again i'm guilt trapped into having to go to the shop to help my grandma and uncle out...they are the most disorganised bunch of peoplei know...coz even though they have been in this line for so long things still clogup....then they will say "that why you have to helpout at the shop more often...." and all that things....yup....after the crowd has subsided and lin and pri's constants msgs and calls.....i realli had to leave.... rushed home @10+ to for the yummy nasi lemak dinner mummy bought frm changi village... ya den started gettin ready to meet the rest @ party @ momo... hailed a cab and the cabbie thought i was headed for the overcrowded MOS...lol....nah... i'm going to momo...the place where lin's lover is working at.... that fella was resourceful enough to get invites for lin & 5 of her frenz....lol which worked out to be the few thats left of out sqd.... when i reached there....was pleasently surprised to meet another sqdmate of mine there.... the long lost grace...omg that girl's gotten realli thin nw...
everione making me feel outa place...coz i'm like the onli fat one...='(
sigh...k new years resolutions list coming up in awhile's time...hah..
the rest were there frm 10+ but i onli reached at 12+....gawd...they were like drinking and dancing already....time for fun...
danced and chatted and listened to the music all night before going back to the table....my poor baby was so bored...=/
brought him along so that he could enjoy the music but the poor fella just recovered from his alcohol allergy so can't or didn't drink much....didn't even join us on the dance floor....
overall the night was fun went frm dance floor to platform to podium then down to podium again was up there watching leroy and the other bar top dancers entrance the dance floor....rather impressive and sensual moves he's got there... most of the crowds oohed and ahhed at them... some from the top we could see some of the guys drooling over our sqd belles.....lol....think they had fun teasing the boys...did that for awhile before going back to our table for drinks...spoke to afew strangers who wanted to dance but nothing interesting...all the same butt shaking and arm swinging moves....was quite funny...
baby wasn't pleased to be left there but he tried not to show his boredom....was quite guilty but the girls would let me leave...they said wait for the last r&b song before we left...but the thing is...the songs at clubs never end until they are like closing....
haha....let them have their way for awhile before retreating into the cushy comforts of the ladies...the loo as furnished wif big round cushions that we all wanted to bring home...haha...stayed inside to talk away from the smoke and loud music...haha..
...overall a great night...had fun and made some new would-be clubbing khakis....haha...sweet darhlings....all dancing queesn out to have fun...lol....
hope to see them soon....
muahx.....special thanks to ronnie, ash&lin

lurve ya all

2005-11-07T23:41:00.000+08:00

its been 2 weeks since i last blogged but don't think theres much to update here...

last week was great... monday go school ,tues hol,wed sch.thurs hols,fri sch....haha...its like holiday week...feeling totally relaxed and i find that i'm able to pay better attention in class after having a day's break...or maybe its the company...i duno but i kinda like hanging out with wari, peishuang, gladys and yvonne..they are nice and friendly people..*sweet* they are fun to talk to and have interesting pt jobs...there is like so much adventures in their lives comapred to mine...working as relief property in shopping malls... makes me kinda wish i had that job too... =)
yups...though i don't really know them that well but i hope they won't find me a pest...(i admit i can be pesky at times...esp when i just zone out)...come on..its like the last 1/2 yr of my school life before i have to go work in the society....i better buckup...kinda motivated by peishuang..she's so good with catching info from our lects and then writing them in neat itty bitty rows on the lecture notes( something i can't do)... 1st week was fun...though kinda sad that ba didn't come to school....duno why...we kinda drifted after that incident...but its not her fault...yup...

then madeleine n her bf came to my hse on friday with the intention to dye her hair with my boxes of dyes and her bf wanting to bleach his hair white.
hmmm....they were like suppose to turn up @ 3-4 but she's late as usual and came only @ 5+....yup i was almost dragged off to ahmah's coffeeshop...lucky she manage to call me or else she would have been left standing outside my house...me and mummy stayed home while doink and fibe went... she was wearing her 'meetme' outfit again...i casually named her black lycra v-neck & blue jeans assemble the 'meetme' outfit because she's always wearing tha when she meets me...like ya...i've seen met her like 3-4 time during my hols and she never fails to turnup in the 'meetme' outfit...=p
mad, her bf and i sat in the den and started chatting and we talked about almost everything that happened from the last time i saw her....it was one long list with many missing parts as usual...we just sat ther and talked and talked till it was dinner time..haa..i had 1/2 a duck kwaychap, ...
wasn't able to do it cause we were missing one important tool for the dye job to work properly and her bf didn't have the bleach with him to...

...well maybe the fact that my mummy found out that my sister and i secretly adopted 2 baby hamsters and hid them in our room. yangyang would stop fighting with weiwei...
she's furious to know that i actully kept something this big away from her....i don't know why but why can't i keep the hamsters if i look after it myself and keep them clean....*sigh*

First day of School

2005-10-31T17:11:00.000+08:00

Todays the first day of school...arh...feeling so reluctant to drag my lazy butt out of my bed... the first thing that popped into my head was "omg i'm late~!!"

i was up till quite late doing my project planning and clearing up the mess after my cousins left...miss those buggers but its quite tiring to prepare so much food and have to clear up after that....today first class was at 8:30....like 8:30 in the morning....

(talk about being unfair) hate the fact that my bro and sis can still stay home and sleep while i have to go all the way to school...my bro's hols are like earlier than mine but he's still enjoying his hols while i've got to go to school and my sister's school hols have just started.....sucky

hols was not that bad though...i had my funs and pains....went to micheal buble's concert,bunked at aunty mary's place played with hamsters,went to sentosa,gave my tutee intensive classes all the way up will last week...tuition is fun i like seeing my tutee get smarter and being able to do his work well....gives me a sense of accomplishment...=)

promised to take him out if he does well for his papers...haha....i like to shower him with sweets when he does something well and of course i will punish him if he doesn't do his work....haha... now that he's going to have his hols soon i will have to think of what to which subject should i concentrate more and teach him.... planning planning..... this is like my 2nd major project after my fyp....its called project smart edwyn...my job's to help him with his eng and maths....most people will loook at it as a job whreby they can get money and stuff but to me its more like a commitment where every little thing i do/ teach him will affect him next time when he goes out to work....like his love for english/ maths will eventually determind the path which he would take.....
=/...duno if i'm reading too much into it...but seriously i would be doing this job if its just for the money cause kids can get really naughty at time...like me last time...haha..

better days ahead...

hahaha

2005-10-19T23:09:00.000+08:00

yay....i passed all my modules for this semester....
haha.....after so many weeks of worrying i can finally breathe easy.....was so worried about it cause the paper was tough even when i did for it...=/

feeling much better

2005-10-11T01:36:00.000+08:00

just got home from micheal buble's concert at the indoor stadium....gawd i feel so much better after being there even when i'm tired and waiting for my turn to washup before i can go to bed.....mb's concert was brilliant...all the women and young girls were screaming the moment he stepped onstage to sing...he's a great performer with a great voice and he has a talent charming crowd with his witty and unreserved jokes...even though we had to wait for like 1&1/2 hr for everyone to be cleared by the security before his concert could start....
he's only been in the music industry for like 2-3 yrs? i duno but this guy so good with moving the crowds that he'll be able to beat those crackpot politicians hands down....hee

the concert was great but the adventure me,pri our mums and my sis had after that was even more interesting...

we thought we could get away from the crowds and congestions by walking toward kallang airport but we were wrong...little did we know that we would get lost and be walking in circles in the shadows cast by the moonlight on tall hoardings... we walked and walked and walked till our legs ached before we found a group of drivers...my mum approached one of them to ask them where were we and how to get to kallang airport from there and they kindly directed us to the exit of the carpark.....and that leads back to the concert hall...pri and i thoughtwe were in the twilight zone with the daada daadum daada daadum music....haha

we walked till we found the big macdonalds and the big KFC...yay...it was like we walked through twilight zone and finally found civilisation....we went to macdonalds to grab a bite because pri and my sis were hungry... after our late supper/ dinner (for pri) we decided to start walking again until we saw cabs at the traffic junction...both groups of us hopped onto the cabs and got home safely....haha...which is why i'm able to write this here and now.... still waiting for my sister to get out of the toilet.....=/
i really had a great day out with pri, my sis and our mums =)

Many days ahead....

2005-10-09T00:04:00.000+08:00

Just got home from school and i feel like life's not that bad after all....its been such a long time since i blogged cos i was going through a period of mourning.....i was like mourning and sulking since that incident all the way through my exams and even after my exams......i even contemplated quiting my course......*sigh* but i had to stay on cause i promised my grandparents that i would get my diploma and graduate the same time as my aunt who's the same age as me....

what was i mourning about? a loss of friendship with the world's nicest and most sincere people i met in my poly...was really sad to lose it cause they were really fun people to be with......its all my fault...i didn't know how to appreciate them....=/ but no point crying over spilt milk.... i can only pray to god for strength to continue on with the last 6 months of my course and hope that i would have the courage to say i'm sorry again when i meet them in future....cause chances are they are still mad at me for the things i did...*Sigh*

ohwell....enough of this mopping around my aunt ever said what's done is done and there's nothing i can do to change the fact that i let them down....soo.....time to put my energy to more a productive use like doing more research and gathering more information for my fyp....i've let so many people down already so i can't let this two in my fyp group down too....cause the fyp is like the MOST important project of my whole poly life...it actually makes the end of my course when its done... its like the last major project i'll have to do in my whole 3 years and it is crucial that we get the grades that we want....especially so for ba...cause she wants to go to the U right after poly while i want to work for like 3-4yrs 1st to save the money for my tuition fees before i can go there....

i almost died of shock when i found out from denise that i needed to have at least $80K in my bank account before i can go into a full time degree course and thats provided i can get into a 3 yr course and graduates after the 3 yrs....80k is such a humongous sum for someone who's not working but already in debt like me.....=(
i'm so young and already in debt cause of my dad wants me to get a bank loan to pay for my own poly fees......poor me...its getting harder and harder for me to get to my goal....*sigh*

i need to go out i need to go see the crowds and know what its like to be among the crowds again....i'm so bored and lonely going to school and staying home the whole time... ah...when is my baby waking up...he's been sleeping since last afternoon....shall i go wake him up?...maybe i should...sleeping too much is bad for him...

2005-09-08T11:01:00.000+08:00

Miss everyone from my usual gang...love the fun and enthusiasm everyone has for everything..its so unlike my classmates...they're all so competitive and its a totally 'marks-orientated' kinda relationship we have with each other...everything to them is to see how many points they can get... :(
talk about having fun... =/
sad to say that there aren't many true friendship in poly everyone's making use of or backstabbing each other...i've not been trained to handle this kinda situation and i'm feeling so stressed i'm thinking of leaving...
...feeling so stressed for so many reason... i don't know where to start...everyone seems to be getting along well but guess its just the facade that we're all looking at...i don't know...

recently went into a compulsive * streak i've hurt my bestie in poly really badly...took her trust and kindness too lightly forgot how easily worked up she can be...i don't know how i did it or wh...but its definately going to affect my friendship wi her...sad coz she's been the one thats been there for me most of the time other than mi dear...

i pray to god for strength to carry on with my studies in poly till the end of next semester...help

Theo's Impromptu Farewell dinner

2005-09-01T00:57:00.000+08:00

Theo's leaving Singapore to go to Canada to study...OMG....i'm going to miss this pretty babe when she's gone....i can't bear for her to leave even when i know its for her own good....she's going to canada with her As to get a degree with honours in the university of toronto...gosh...this girl's so brave... i for one won't want to leave everyone at home especially my dear to go anywhere other than Singapore to study my degree.....
i'll miss everyone and everything loads.....gawd....

all this makes me think of the good time we had in our past...especially during our NP days...this girls was one of the toughest NCO's in my batch...one of the smartest and most level headed girls in my squad...

will be sending her off in a few hours time....hope no one cries there....coz there'll always be tears at farewells....remember my sec 4 farewell....the whole sqd was flooding the hall with our tears.....everyone was crying all except our dear theo...brave theo...those were the days....when everyone is all enthusiastic and happy to go for any and every event planned....even if its last minute like tonight's....can't imagine my polymates like this...if this ever happens...the whole world would be able to strike 4D....lol...thats like totally impossible...i guess...but thank god i have my sqdmates...who are always so caring and supportive...think of the smiley sweet strawberry shortcakes.... haha..talking about that i just bought the world's nicest strawberry shortcakes beanie that i've been hunting for....~!! its great and it accompanied me to theo's farewell...was patient and smiling all the way...lol...
bit OOT but strawberry shortcakes has bee my fav dollie for ages...someone stole my first one...and i finally found the second one...yippie...i'm loving it...
*sigh* really she bu de theo....my only consolation is that she'll be a smarter theo when she gets back...

-=dear god please grant her patience and wisdom in whatever she does when she's abroad, may your heavenly grace bless and protect her from any harm and dangers lurking around and keep her safe and happy when she's there so that she would be able to concentrate in her studies and get her honours...lord please make sure that she does not forget her dear friends who will be waiting for her to come home especially on our next reunioun with her which is already set on 25th December 2010...dear lord thats all i have to pray for for now and in jesus name i pray...Amen.=-

Theo this is my blessings to you and may god bless you and your future endeavours...take care and hope to hear from you when you are settled down there k....take care*hugx*....

Sucky day in school

2005-08-22T15:58:00.000+08:00

today is a sucky day...
was sad the whole time through....
my groupmate's still angry with me...
i don't know what to do...
how do i tell her i was sick?...
i don't think she'll even care..
she'll most probably think what i said is crap
i don't know...*sigh* don't know what to do...

Soccer Match

2005-08-20T22:17:00.000+08:00

Was at the annual DE inter-class street soccer match this morning....
woke up late as usual but this time i was having a bad hangover didn't feel like waking up at all but i promised my friend that i would be there with her to support the guys...this was the first time i was going for the interclass street soccer in 2yr+ studying career in SP and i didn't know what to expect of the event.

got dressed pretty quickly and went on to wakeup my dear who was super reluctant to wakeup...haha....

we finally managed to leave home 1 hour later and went to tahpao breakfast before hoping into a cab to sch...the cab fare amount into a shitty $18.30...so ex but no choice...*damn*

reached there and went to the s.s court 1st game has already started...*damn again*
1st game was a 4-4 tie
2nd game was a 2-2 tie
3rd game was a 5-6 we lose...
there was suppose to be a 4th game but the opponents got disqualified...(1 of e yr2 buggers was super late) ohwell....

the guys played well and never failed to try and intercept a shot...even if its from their own team mates...lol) and carried on thill the last match...they were 'defeated' not because their opponents were strong but was because they lost their momentum due to the sudden downpour....one of them missed a shot...poor guys...

ying and i was busy filling up their water bottles and she was busy screaming what seems more like discouragements to the buys instead of encouragements like any supporter/motivator would...haha i miss being in the same class as her...coz she's the cute lil jc...lol...she better not see this....lol...=x

it was a good game on the whole,they played really well so there was no lose even if they didn't get into the next round...nore chance for next year....unless they decide to be enthu. and come back to join again(something which i doubt they would)...=p

my poor baobao got a scrap on his knee...wonder how long would it take for it to heal...=/ feeling so *xin tong* to see him put on a brave front when i help him put med...must have hurt alot...*sigh* soccer...

My Current lemmings

2005-08-16T22:22:00.000+08:00

arh... feeling so sad... supposed to be working on my fyp survey but i can't stop thinking about the new item i saw online just now....dang...should have resisted the temptation to visit the aeropostale site....now i'm lemming for so many items from there...how?
no credit card how to order....how i wish someone will help me order...i could pay the person back...but what are the chances that someone would help mi get it....=(
*sigh* feeling so sad... here's some of the pics of how the things i'm lemming for look like...
two hoodies and a skirt...haha....weird that's i'm lemming for a skirt considering i haven't been much of a skirts girl...maybe its a change in taste of something....arh i duno...but i wan....

see finish le...so what do you all think? Nice? its on sale now too..~!!

MS Project Assignment

2005-08-03T23:51:00.000+08:00

The End Of My Ms Project Assigmnment~!!
haha...finally finished and handed up my stupid Ms project.
Don't know if i'm doing it correctly because we were told to make our own assumptions and 'take our own initiative' to this darn project.

I have taken the liberty of this mini project to rearranged the sequence of the tasks stated in the question paper (MS Project Assignment) and added a few more tasks of my own to make my project plan more realistic while keeping in mind that this project plan is to make sure that work is being carried out properly and efficiently.

Though most of us who will eventually be working on site have probably gone through the proper education in the studies in building and construction technology a hand full of us working or aspiring to work in this field will tend to forget what they have learnt from time to time. This is especially so for the to-be-fresh graduates who are still in the midst of getting used to not having their respectable lecturers to consult. not so much for me but some of the people are so reliant on the poor fellas that tutorial classes are like a walkathon exercise for those poor buggers....oh well..

Not suffering from the "ask-e-lecturer-for-the-answers" syndrome but hope i can maintain this till the very end...coz i almost lost it when my classmates and I have been tasked to complete this MS Project assignment during our one week break and that we would have to hand in the actual work as well as a on the first lesson on the opening term.

we were like left dangling with our lecture notes as our only helpline...arh....but glad that its all over....yayz...

Fireworks Night out with mi sqdmates

2005-07-31T22:04:00.000+08:00

i made plans the night before to meet pri for a little shopping in town plus catch-up session over at her place before going to cafe iguana for dinner for dinner followed by partying at club momo...
and i was running late as usual and had to postpone the time due to the terribly cold and wet weather at my aunts place...it was pouring and the waters almost flooded the playground near my aunt's..so me and my dear had to sit around and wait for the rain to stop...
the time was not wasted as my my uncle suggested that we watch war of the worlds while waiting for the rain....the show was good...exactly like what i've seen in the cinema...haha...
and we had a really delicious beef curry rice made by all of us at home....haha....was my first time healping out with the curry and i was glad that everything turned out great.
well it was not really a night out with my whole squad but i was a night out nevertheless...

reached kovan at around 5 and met pri @ heartland to shop around before we actually made our way to her place...haha...can't stop myself from looking at things...we chatted and updated each other about the facts of our(me,her our sqdmates) lives..haha missed everyone so much adn thats when i got my sudden urge to call everyone up to see if they could meet for dinner at iguana's...haha talk about me being last minute... =p called everyone but only managed to get theo to join us....the others were either doing their fyp, at church or at the national day preview...*sigh*...

watched mtv till i almost fell asleep when D arrived talked and waitined for lin to call back to confirm ...T had also arrived when lin finally called back haha...only then did we realize that pri hasn't called to make reservations @ iguana's yet....and when we called we were put to the answering machine...they called back to inform us that they were fully boooked like 1hr after we called shucks...
pri hurriedly scanned through the phone book to look for a suitable place and when we found sizzling rock...made a reservation for 8 but three of them couldn't make it at the end...ohwell....not a very good start for the evening but was still quite optimistic about the night...

....finally reached went to sizzling rock with my friends...the overall comment was that the food was so-so... and their service was not as good as what i heard from my other friends.the 3 of us ordered steak while the others ordered the baby chicken chop and the salmon thing .we took quite a long to decide what to order and waited patiently for food to be served...and presentation for the food was ok but my friends and i had a hard time cutting the steak... it was harder than we ordered and they didn't give us a steak knife...

-End of TEST WEEK-

2005-07-23T01:46:00.000+08:00

ahahahaha....i'm going mad...with the fact that i have a one week break coming just next week....YES~!!! now i can revamp my room...my study table and all my other stuff so that the place looks fresh...haa....feeling so bored witht he way things are and i want to change the way everything looks...not structurally or re-doing anything drastically though...probably some re-arranging of furnitures for some space re-allocation....gawd i can't wait for everthing to be finished...i will do it myself if i have to stay home the whole day... i won't tolerate another day of playing nice with that irritating creature anymore...hate it...arh...
enough of the bad and negative stuff....already...
have to start thinking positive or else someones going to start calling me ms grumpy again...

hahaha.....its here...its finally here... the long awaited harry potter book 6 is finally here in singapore...went to popular jst now but the adult version was all sold outand the next shipment will only be in by next week...can't wait to go get it....

was surfin CC just no and i chance upon a thread talking about the expiry dat of cosmetics...read the whole thread i i was quite amazed to find out the that makeup expires so quickly...especially mascaras...wonder why...now i know why people keep saying that some cosmetics oxides really quickly...some lasts for years some months and some a mere few weeks..now starting to wonder which of my makeup has acutally oxidised and for how long isit rotting...i can't imagine...=/

SPRING CLEANING TIME~!!
ahaha....i intend to clear my mu drawers so that i can buy new stuff....ahaha...its wasteful but its gone bad already...so no choice...hehe...(^-^)

A lesson hard learnt...

2005-07-19T21:58:00.000+08:00

today's a sad day...i learnt something terrible and now i'm feeling the aftermath of it... the bitter sense of betrayel is as bitter as i can remember it the last time...don't wish to say much about it but need a place to let out this bitterness too....so here it is...i'm feeling quite miserable today and right now... (-_-)

Study break

2005-07-17T14:49:00.000+08:00

haha....just came back from my 3days 2nights studying frenzy from my aunt's place....it was a rather peaceful time without my annoying my sister bugging me all the time...really enjoyed studying there...could feel that the facts are actually going in...haha..

taught daniel his piano...and he's still trying to breeze through the class without practicing in advance....no improvements from him again...as usual...i wonder isit something wrong with him or is the problem with me...he doesnt' seem to be improving at all....so i made him practice and practice and practice to makeup for all the lost practice time....

he practiced till his fingers got too tired to do anything else other than playing computer games....sheesh...what a lousy brat...he better stop thinking that he can pass the song without practicing...gawd and his posture is atrocious...who ever taught him how to hunch his back like a tortise to play with his chopstick fingers...but at the end of the three 'make him pay back those missing practices' days he improved one teeny weeny little bit its not significant but he did at least improve...sense of accomplishment for not wasting my aunt's money...haha...

one the 2nd day of practice he improved a summore so i decided to reward him with a few hours outing to hg mall... we went to the library for the kids to borrow and return their books and then we went grocery shopping at the ntuc in the basement to get next weeks supply of food for her household...she shopped there for about 2-3 hrs +...and only after this experience did i understand why my aunt had to scrimp and save on all the luxuries....her family is not big(4 ppl) but she has to do grocery shopping for 6 ppl coz of their (live-in house help and her daughter)...even after we scrutinized the shelves of munchies and compared the prices of the items they were getting...the total bill came up to a hefty sum of $126++... i was quite shocked but my aunt said that was the norm as their family eats and uses alot...

after buying the grocery shopping we went to bangawan solo to get some snacks for the kids...and that was the appetizers for their KFC dinner...my aunt and i decided to order the family feast, a large ice lemonade and 4 warm plain water....i can't say that the meal was enjoyable or anything coz the kids were giving my aunt a hard time...running around asking for more things....gosh... i didn't know it was that hard to look after them until after these few days...

after dinner we carried everyting home and sorted out the items before we continued studying....wsa quite tired but was motivated to study because we could watch madagascar after we finished doing our 'jobs'...haha the show was really short but was packed with funny jokes and actually had a meaningful message within....haha...strange that i couldn't identify a hero in this particular show...but i love alex the lion...find that marty the zebra is stupid...
sigh....

i really joyed the comapany of both my cute and charming cousins daniel and hugo...the former's a stubborn brat that doesn't listen to anyone unless they have the cane in hand while the latter is a naughty little imp that thinks he can smile his way out of doing things like helping out with the chores...reminds me so much of the past...when i didn't have anything but cartoon timings to bother about...haha....i like to say that even with their little shortcomings they are still so much better compared to my sis...that evil girl...has caused more damage to everyone at home than
anyone outside other than my dear knows...she terribly mean to all of us even to my mum...*sigh* i can't wait to get a home for me and my mum to stay in.. and leave her to herself... hate the weird things she accuses us of doing and not doing...all of us got so bored of hearing it that i totally switch of when she starts her daily rants and raves....oh well...what to do she's my sister what...

*sigh* and this concludes the 3days+ i spent at my aunt's... god bless her and her family ....*hugz*

~Start of My Test Week~

2005-07-15T00:52:00.000+08:00

*sigh* i'll be having my test in less than a day's time but now still cant get anything into my head...don't know whats wrong with me...can't seem to concentrate properly..don't have the confidence to do the test yeti'm still not motivated enough to start my studying proper...=/

currently learning spanish from my friend living in Menorca Island of Spain..i was puzzled when when i asked her which part of spain did she live in and she told me "islas baleares in menorca" so i asked her what was she trying to say and
this is her explaination: "The islands inhabi tants of the Balearic Islands it is the set of menorca, mallorca, ibiza and formentera". Only then did i know the Spain actually had islands and they are known as the Balearic Islands...wow~...haha...this is enlightening...

I played Maple as i chatted with her cause she was also busy chatting with her other friends..and as we chatted she taught me how to use some spanish words while i told her more about singapore...jeje...gracias prof,diver divertido muy guay...jeje (^-^)

Encounter with Maple Story

2005-07-12T09:18:00.000+08:00

it took a few good comments, cool actions and cute pictures and i am sold to the ever famous internet game:Maple Story.

its kinda cool..fun and its FREE...*haha*...i think thats the extra perk every broke net game junkie liek mi bro likes the most abt...

well its nice and cute...and best of all is...i tink i'm addicted to it....been playing it for the past 4 days and this the is only thing that gets me home early like 9+ =x *haha*...
duno what wrong with me...but i do get a kick of of killing those cute lil monsters like this "green slime"...coz thats the only way i can earn some experience points to level up and get stronger...haha...dont understond why is this cute creature given sucha disgusting name...but guess thats just part of the game...(^-^)

was quite surprised to fine that quite afew of my friends are also playing this game and in the midst of completing game quest... *haha* sounds so fun...maybe shall find a common time to ask everyone online to play the game together....*haha*...more fun..shall have to start thinking of a list of people to ask...hmm...wonder who will be interested to join me during my 1wk term break..intending to try and catchup with my stupid brother and go for my 2nd job advancement like my baobao said...hee..

Sweet Memories A certain sense of accomplishment

2005-07-09T03:11:00.000+08:00

Strange that at the end of the day i still managed to feel a certain sense of accomplishment for having been able to not let my guil overcome my sense of commitment towards my project...
think its all thanks to my dear and also my proj pres grpmates coz they were like supporting me all day long...
though i skipped mrs ti's valuation to do my slides i still managed to get a job well done from my fyp facilitator on the standard of work and details for my grps direction for the contents page.
and also my rwp lect's approval on the right direction and the relevants of the topic of my grps presentation slides...though it was rather straessful...i tink i managed to pull it off quite well being my grp's smallest but most confident girl i would say that my grp has done a great job though we encountered some difficulties in accomodating the time for our slide presentation practices...its a job well done....

Ladies though our slides were not as impressive as the grp right before us but i think we did our best and managed to to show our strength as a grp....and i'm really proud of us today....*grinz*....kalai...can pls send the pics in ur cam to everione?.....will treasure it properly coz this is our grp's first presentation together...though i'm sure there are more presentations to come but this is our first and we did great...*haha...i'm overwhelmed by my grps 1st success*....
haha..duno what else to say le...
today my brain's not working properly....but thank god i can still blog...
~~*Sweet Memories*~~

Loss of Precious Memories...

2005-07-09T01:36:00.000+08:00

horrid day...i lost my hp in the cab that i took to sch this morning...hate it...and its all the fault of the stupid taxi driver...that idiot literally shooed me and my baobao off e cab after we paid him and zoomed off...thus resulting in my misfortune of having lost my dear's hp...
its the nicest phone of his and it was the first phone that i helped him choose...
that beauty was his pride and joy coz he bought it for me to use...but now i lost in the terrible cab...and it was not thanx to the customer service dept of the cab company that i suffered such a huge loss...
all the pics...video clips and music that i have painstakingly took,filmed and recorded...all gone down the drain...i feel terrible for having lost all those...the damn idiot can have the stupid phone if he wants it but i wan all the precious pics,videos and sound clip....cause they do have sentimental values...all the nice memories...lost...feeling so sad over the loss...and i don't know what to do....

immediately after i realised i left my phone in the cab i called the cab co. but the stupid idiot who picked up the phones still can tell me to wait...den gave me another number(customer service dept) to call...and this stupid number that fella gave me was not answered at all...i was close to tears...when my dear called back the 1st number i dialed on his phone and screamed at the dumb creature for giving us the number of a never ending answering machine

....only then did the dumb 1 try to do something about my case... though all they did was take down my dear's name, description of the phone:siemens white SL65 in furry purple and pink flower patterned drawstring hp pouch the taxi's licence plate number, the time i boarded and time i left the cab...i have all these info coz i have this habit of collecting the reciepts from the cabby....but this obnoxious idiot actually denied having found my phone in his cab...dumbass claimed that he had picked up several passengers right after my dear and i got off so he could answer the phone....mi dear and pres grpmates(ba,kalai,faz) were busy bombing my lost phone with calls hoping the person who found it would pickup return it but the dishonest freak actually switched off my phone...feeling damned pissed as there was no way i could get back my phone now...and i had other commitments to do...namely going for class and preparing my speech and my presentation slides...no more mood to do anything le coz i was so guilty for losing my dear's hard saved phoned...sad....
the only thing i can do now is to save up $500+ to buy him his dream phone...sigh....feeling so sad.... fo losing the phone...don't think my dear will understand how i feel coz he thinks thats whats lost will never be found...ohwell...i duno what to say...still feeling stunned....but will have to start saing $$ for his dream phone le...coz my dear has expensive taste....

Feeling The Pressure

2005-06-30T14:30:00.000+08:00

Hai...my ever stressed buddy in class bavani is at her most stressed state now cause her incessent stressing has infected me and now i'm feeling really stressed too...
here's a list of my problems...

preparing my presentation slides for this friday's presentation...(duno what to do and where to start...)
More Drafting up my fyp group's contents page for our facilitator...

i not as hard as it sounds actually and i could have done everything quite quickly if not for her almost every 5 minutes repeatings...

sigh~...its a good thing that i have my baobao to kepp me focused on my work instead of stressing or else my group wouldnt have been able accomplish anything useful much lees have anything done by this coming friday ...

here's what we did...i told mi pres grp to split up and do out parts seperately so as to make the most out of time instead of everyone slacking around not knowing what to do next...i find that when we are split up my grp can perform better as we all know what would we like to present on that day... so thats problem no 1 down...

now for problem no 2...
probelm no 2 is a lil tricky coz we dont have all the info with us and we needed to conduct a rather thorough search through the net as well as library's archives....
i split up my 3person fyp grp into 3 mini search parties where baobao, me and ba had to do some intensive research to see which direction would our grp be going into and why...
so my plan was...we split up into 3 parties to search for info for the 3 of our prospective project directions to see which one had the most info and which would be a better topic and direction to move in....

...strangely enough...ms kan chiong spider(you know who you are) relaxed alot after i told her of all my plans for all our project events....and this is good news ok...coz i don't have to deal with any highly stress-able people until the next phase of my projects...

Going Mad~

2005-06-29T00:31:00.000+08:00

ahahahaha....i'm going mad...
i'm so disorganized i duno what to do liaoz...
initially i started taking notes in mi lil yellow book but now i dun even understnd what is my yellow bk talking about...how?
i know i can't afford to go crazy at this time but with all the lectures, tutorials, proposals, presentations, reports and projects...its hard for one like me to keep same...
all my groupmates have already started pulling their own hairs out...and i don't want to be part of it =/ coz i dont wan my almost 1mths old rebonded hair to fall off for nothing...that would be so wasteful and not to mention stupid of me....

ohwell
have to think of a better plan to cope with my new found schedule and stress...or else i wouldnt be able to achieve those target i set....
first one on my list will be
T0 WakeUp Early Enough NOT to take Cabs to School.....

Satisfied and newly contented

2005-06-24T12:06:00.000+08:00

haha....yes~!
i finally got what i wanted~~
though it was a hot day i was determind to go get all my stuff...met my baobao after class in sch had dinner at f2...as usual we had a realli yummy meal...haha..coz i ordered all my favourite food..

tomato sardine with onions
fried egg
fried bean sprouts
black sauce chicken

then went to meet my cousin,my friend and my cousin's friend...

1st stop was....... cold storage...haha...wasn't part of my plan by al wanted to go get something for her picnic trip the next day so thats where we went...haha...almost died there coz i realli didn't knw what was al looking for...she didn't wan to say so i wa sunable to help her find all her stuff....ended up with just afew 'grocery' items..haha
was kinda fun...but my poor baobao got bored of hte place pretty quickly but had to tag along...
sorry dear~but its really not part of my plans...*hug*... after al's grocery shopping
we went to TBS...

At TBS we shopped around that lil outlet for more than 1hr coz al was determineded to get the 30% disc. we looked and looked and looked at all the items...labels and costs...haha...she did it more than me though...she calculated and calculated with her hp calc but can't blame her....she has to earn her own keep...*hugz* miss that brave girl...i woudn't be able to do it until i get the fun i want...
after shopping for so long i ended up with

cocoa butter lip balm..for my severly dehydrated puckers
tea tree essential oil... my new found friend for fight those horrible pimples
lavender body mist...so that my baobao can sleep better
peppermint body wash...my baby's favourite bodywash...the nice cooling sensation...(^-^)

the total damage for both al and me came up to more than $70...*SiGh* have to think of a better plan to save $$ for my driving lessons... coz i really want to get my license... dowan to waste time now..later regret not learning like my working friends...

jiayou~!?

haha...after our mad TBS shopping...me and al went to seiyu where she again shopped for a dozen things i have nv bought in mi whole life...=/ wonder where did she get such ideas from...ohwell...i sound like it sumthing very bad...it isn't but it was a whole lot of guy stuff which she said was for her dad...=/ come to think of it i have never bought clothes for my dad...lalala...its not that's i'm un fillial or what but i don't live with him what...but for what...he has never bought me any clothes not since the the cny clothes shopping in 1995...

no regrets for me on that though... *siGh* i hate to talk about the past...its hurting...and i duno why is it taking so long to heal for me...feeling sad....

but i still wan to write about my trip to bugis village....damn...this is going to be a really long~~~ post...but who cares.... i started thsi blog to note all the nitty gritty things in my life so that i would be able to look back to those days when i go on to work and grow old...

haha...after i rotted around seiyu while waiting for al to get her stuff.. i finally got to go to my bugis village to look around~!!

haha...like after a long 4hrs+....=/ was kinda bored...already..but lucky my cousin and her freinds were free to go bugis viallge with me coz my baobao was really tired... and al had to run coz of my friend's birthday...though i was kinda disappointed coz she had to go so quickly but i hv to understand that that friend of hers was one of her besties...yup...so there it is...=/

At bugis Village~... Me,madeleine n her friends had a swell time....was busy like a bee hunting for my bag while mad and friends hung around looking for interesting buys... haha....found my baggie...and i was sooo happpy...haha...like finally ya...after so long... i finally got my new bag pack...

had been leeming for it for a long time but didn't have the time to go find it....the baggie cost me $23 instead of e $30+...was glad the uncle was willing to give me a discount...haha...yay...new bag...hope it helps ease the shoulder aches...

My Birthday~!...morning~!?

2005-06-22T08:13:00.000+08:00

haha...this title reminds me of my primary sch compo where my teacher always ask us to write stuff like a day in the park, a day with this a day with that...
all these remembering is giving me a headache...=/ duno whether to miss it or just forget all about it lor...coz i can't say that i had the world's most perfect childhood but its definately one of the better ones around....arh...i duno wat am i saying~!?
must be my birthday madness...can't wait to meet my friends later....after school...whee~

Day out with my buddy~

2005-06-21T22:27:00.000+08:00

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Day out with my buddy denise was great....
even though it was a short 4 hrs+ i really enjoyed the time we had...haha

was so touched when she passed me my birthday present...really appreciated her hardwork...she actually baked a me whole box of chocolate chip cookies....YuMmIE~!!

-they are really out of this world....
-not too sweet..
-not too hard...
-not too soft ...so its just right for me~.... (^-^)

piggeed out at our fav N.Y.D.C
havn't had sucha marvelous meal in such a long time...
we had

Cream of Potato soup...which is something like clam chowder w/o the clams
That boney cake..warm cake with ice-cream and whipped cream on the side
The Three Amigos....Baked Pasta with Xtra tomato sauce...
The meatball that ate Manhattan..more cheese and chilli flakes pls

was really yummy and we both ate till we were bloated... =p

after our heavy lunch-dinner we procceded to shopping~!!

but too bad it started raining....den there goes my appetite for shopping....=/ i don't like to shop during wet weather cause its so cold and i don't want all my stuff to get wet....

*hai* was kinda disappointed coz i didn't even managed to get anything....ohwell but there's always tomorrow~....*grinz*

and tmr's my birthday...hope it doesn't rain then can realli go shopping....

i wan to go watch movie... buy my bag and maybe make use of all the discounts i have...haha....only den will i be satisfied...but i'll be really broke...=X...

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Sick Me...='(

2005-06-21T11:51:00.000+08:00

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*AarhH*....i'm losing my voice again~.....hai.... on the eve of my birthday and i have to lose my voice...what else can happen to me? ='(
i still wan to go shopping....
buy all the things i need before my discounts expire...or esle will be sucha waste of money...
*sigh* howhowhow?
more liang chars and lozenges~!! hope got no overdose...

My New Shopping List Vs the Discount Expiry Date:26th June

2005-06-21T00:17:00.000+08:00

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As most of you knw....i'm currently consolidating a list of the stuff i need to buy by the end of this week in order to make full use of my birthday discounts which expire on the 26th June for most places...
sigh...

Swimsuit frm Buttcheeks (20% off for mi bdae wk)
Peppermint Bodywash from TBS ( if got 4 more ppl den can get 30% off)
Jeans from Bugis Village/ 77th Street ( 20% off for mi bdae wk)
Rebonding Shampoo from i also duno where....still in the midst of finding a suitable pdt
Bag Pack for sch use depends on where can i find
Shoes frm 77th Street for my cousin ( 20% off for mi bdae wk)
Clothes from ebase

arh...i wan cafe iguana~....but need reservations one...? why so marfun... ..hai....

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GSS~!!

2005-06-19T13:16:00.000+08:00

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ahahahaha....this years GSS has nothing special to draw hermits like me unto the streets to shop..i'd rather stay home and shop online...so surf forums,and stuff...sigh
so far theres nothing much for me to do right now other than concentrate on getting my voice back at the same time help my baobao find his inspiration to study...
its only the 3rd week and i've already missed 3 full days of school....
this is bad...imagine all the work waiting for me when i get back...
sigh...thinking about it gives me a headache....
once again i will have to go back to sch and find time to do all my multi tasking at the same time...
have gotten almost everything i need in my shopping list and seems like the rebonding shampoo nise n i went red tomato to get is useless....now serious considering whether to get the redken's smooth down anort....hai~
seems tempting...but stingy me wants to find a place which sells the cheapest redken there is...like after having found red tomato i think there are some good places to go to with or without the GSS...sigh
more research for my hair...hopefully i will find the place before my hair dies on me...

which reminds me...
who needs to get anything from

77th Street
The Body Shop
ButtCheeks

next week coz i have 20% off on top of all the discount for my birthday month....haha...then can go shopshop againz...yay~~...
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My Aspirations and Promises

2005-06-19T11:59:00.000+08:00

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I have finally come to terms with having too many wants that i am unable to fulfill due to my lack of skills, knowledge time and yaddayadaa(all the excuses that i can think of *wink*)...

So i have decided to write out a list of wishes as a promise to myself that i will eventually be able to accomplish at least 90% of my targets before i die and go on the the new world...
knowing that forgetful me has a tendency to get wishy washy with all my feelings and stuff i better write it down so that i will have something to remind me... of all my unacomplished tasks...

To Get My Driving License by the End of this year.
Get A Car By Next.
To Be a Qualified Valuer (so i MUST get my Degree and PhD in Valuation/ Law.)
To Help My Grandfather build his OK Empire.
To Help My Grandefather build His Dreamhouse.
To visit all the Disneylands in the World.
To keep 2 Hamsters and hopefully see their family
To keep 1 Dog ( Size of dog depends on the type of house i'm staying in)
To buy all the land along my hometown Swanange Road.

Depending on how much i manage to accomplish.But I would really like to have my own palace...den i can be my own sulky princess and tell Miss Terrible to SHUT UP....hahaa =p

Of Course I will not forget all my Loved ones that has always been there for me :

Mummy<= My Ultiimate life Giver The one who listens to me cry and whine when i'm stressed or when i don't feel well ,always give me spcae to think and work..lover her so
Grannies: Mamah,Ahmah (they looked after me like all my mummys)
Yeye <== My Ultimate idol...he's MR STEADY in My FAmily always taking things in his stride thinking and quietly and never blowing his top unless neccessary..he's really creative and good with his hands a great inventor~!!
My Great-Grannies: Fat and Thin<==Not the typical EMPRESS DOWAGERs who sits about doing nothing but my Fat Ah Chor is very hardworking and creative person who can always be found at her her beloved sewing machine...making patchwork blankets,pillow cover,bolster covers for us. My Skinny ah chor is a very nice and quiet old lady that loves going on holidays when her duaghters can find time to travel with her
My Aunts: Wan<==My Beloved Mummy No 2 aka GuJie & Music Teacher, Mary<==My Beloved Mummy No 3 always there to listen to me whine /Josephine<==My mummy No 4 always bringing me and mi sibs out for educational trips/Rose <==My Beloved Mummy No 5 who is also in charge of my fun and education,
Uncles: Onn<==My even with his quick temper and sharp tongue he's still ultimate fave he has all the father qualities that i find lacking in my own dad..truly a responsible father with great plans for his kids /Peng<= oldest son of my grandfather,a computer whiz with 2 great kids and love for good food and health supplements/Cheng<=Youngest son of my grandfather,doctor turned surgeon..the famous night student..haha...=p
Dear: The one who loves me and pampers me like no other and always finds time to listens to me complain when other bully me and also some one for me to whine to now that i think my mummy are too busy and have so much on their minds..the one i that i can confide all my troubles to..my ultimate soulmate(^-^)...

...I'm Selective and i only list those that has really left an Impact in me and for all of them i MUST work harder and accomplish all my wishes so as not to disappoint them coz i still want to bring them overseas for HOLIDAY~... Be it shopping/Golfing/Sight-Seeing or what ever... they have shown me how to be a good person and i must never ever forget them hopefully they won't forget me.

Father's day...

2005-06-19T09:43:00.000+08:00

One of the most insignificant days for me unfortunately while the whole world is celebrating their happy fathers' day....sigh...feeling kinda sad oso duno why...
is it sad coz i dun have the chance to celebrate such an event with my dad? oso duno...
that guy has never been there for me in those times that i'm down adn out...its not like i don't want to share things with him lor
but he's always too busy with his other family to bother about his older ones...(me, my bro & my sis)...maybe thats why my sister has gone haywire *sigh*...thinking of all the sad things again...
this kinda thinking is going to get me drained one of this days...

his lack of attention has led my lil sis astray and i'm not talking about the typical child delinquent skip school,dye hair,fight with people kinda astray...she totally fine when she's in school with her friends but when she's home with us its a whole different world...
*sigh* i duno how to explain...but she's realli veri nice to her friends but treat all of us back home like her worse enemies...duno whats wrong with her....really the typical ungrateful brat reminds me of something about the dog not biting the hand that feeds it but my sis....hai can't even be compared to a dog...sad..

lucky my bro didn't turnout lidat too...or else my poor mummie won't be able to take it if 2 out of her 3 babies went mad

ohwell...enough of the sad stuff.....will continue striving and hoping for better things in life
first thing first is i will never ever let my sibling get led astray...its alright if they go nuts at home so long as they stop hurting the rest of us but seems impossible for ms terrible...
hope she will be more sensible not only when she's outside but also more understanding toward us...

Sore but fully satisfied

2005-06-17T22:29:00.000+08:00

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My first ever $300++ electro-massage at simei and didn't know how to feel other than weird... can't say much about the place which made me wear a really silly looking balloony dress but that it was really really cold...the massage was really weird it consist of 3 different programmes some cold gels,a big machine with many sticky pads overall procedure took 1hr+

Had a really filling dinner at my newly discovered eatery at east point : The Breeks there is one of the healthier outlets i've visited so far cause the food was really quite bland(no msg/deep fired stuff/overs salty/sugary) but too bad that its located at such an isolated spot...no wonder theres no crowd...but all the better for me coz i can have the whole place for myself

Here's what i ordered

1/2 BBQ chicken with Rosemary Sauce,
1 generous portion of Garlic Mashed Potatoes,
1 Serving of Waldorf Salad.
1 Mushroom Soup
1 cup of Iced Lemon Tea

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Went to the pet safari right after dinner and i almost lost my cool there.... really wanted to bring all those doggies,hammies and fishies home...they are so adorable...i have to go see them again....god i'm obsessed...this is bad...i need my pillow...*sigh* think i better go get some rest or else i won't be able to get well by my birthday...yawn..

My First Official Blog

2005-06-17T13:59:00.000+08:00

Welcome to my first official blog

i know it kinda late for 18 going 19 me...but oh well...better late than never...

Do pardon my lack of a talent in writing,music and art (some of which i will never ever admit) but given i will do my best in improving all of the above... so no flaming okie i need time to work.

Enough of the formalities and time for some rules and regulations

First and foremostly i would like to declare that all the above words and images you see might have been taken from the various sites and i have already seeked permission for adopting it into my personal blog and i do not want anyone copying and saving it into anywhere which would make it illegal cause that would get you into trouble with the copyrights people...
All that I am about to post here are all based on my humble opinion and I will not be legally bound in anyway be it contractually or whatever.I don't want my thoughts to cause any legal issues so SPARE ME FROM THE WORLD OF LAW AND POLITICS...i'm not interested
IF you qoute some parts of my blog for your personal/ academic reasons its fine but if you publish any of my thoughts in some trashy newspaper/tabloids and i hear about it, you wil be hearing from my lawyer .
I will not entertain anyone who intentionally or unintentionally defame me,my friends and family so no insults.

If you find the above statements disturbing in anyway just click the red box with the white X in the corner of your window, close this window and ignore it you are not oblidged to read my blogs in the first place .

=PEACE=

*~>Dancing in The Moonlight<~*